A sudden realisation

Las nite around 11 something, I went to a 24 hours clinic to consult the doctor..

MY feelings became extremely messy and my heart beats about 90 times per minute which according to the doctor is a bit above abnormality but he rest assured me that i'm fine after checking my blood pressure.

I told him the unexplained anxiety started after i finished shopping around 9 pm something.. Actually when i was in the crowd halway, i felt uneasy..that's the reason why i told my colleague that i've no mood to shop and went back..I even cancelled our cycling plan for today..

MY heart beats extremely fast and my hands started to shake..at some instance i felt really scared and lonely..i knew i shouldn't call my mom because this would frightened her but i need to tell her how i felt that time otherwise i think i would faint out of anxiety.. i wanna say "I'm sorry, mom and dad.." here to them..eversince young, i never hide my feelings from them..whether well or unwell, they will always be the first to know about it..

I also had to thank my cousin who accompanied me las nite to the clinic when actually he was with his gf that time when i called for his help..but we r pretty close...and he's the only relative that i hav in singapore.. but everything's fine..after consulting the doctor and treated him as if a psychologist where i blurted out my emotions that moment, my heart beats return to normal and he gave a drowsy medication so that i can sleep properly..

All of a sudden, i felt like all those things that i should be worried about: a good and successful career, courtships and relationships seem like nothing..

After all these las nite, I tell myself that from now on, I will try to deal with things slowly and try to relax..don't get upset over small things and don't worry about things that don't even hav the slightest chance to happen..

all i know is that the people i needed most in my life right now is my parents,and the dear ones near to me..