My temper has been so bad lately..
I hate myself for that..
I knew it wasn't his fault to break his promise and yet I couldn't stop those evil words from my mouth..
I know this uncontrollable temper will only hurt him and myself and may pose threat to our relationship..but still i let it be..
And today i realised i should give him freedom..
I didn't sms or msn him as I usually would..
I felt that I should get used to such loneliness..
Perhaps once i get used to it, I won't need him as much as I would,
In that case, he won't feel suffocated..he won't see me as a burden or a pester..
I thought about it recently, because I love him, I need to set him free..
Only by setting him free, can I set myself free...
I too needed freedom.. freed from being too caught up in love...
I need to be myself..I know deep down..I know problems existed and if I let this continue..it's not going to bring us anywhere.. i should solve it.. i should look deep down inside of me..what's my problem...can this problem be solved using my love for him?
I believe if i really love him, i will bear all sadness in my heart and let him have all the happiness..
I'm still learning.. still trying hard...to adjust self love to stronger selfless love..
I really do wanna make it happen for us..I just want us to be happy~
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